Rick Spencer – Have you ever been away from something so long that when you’re near some semblance of it, you get innappropriately excited?
Ana Pirri – I’m the queen of inappropriately excited. What’s making you so?
Rick Spencer – Well, there’s a [creative person in a place I frequent], and it’s a woman, and she’s kinda cute, and super easy to work with, but this happens at conferences [also], and really any time i’m around other smart people and creatives. Male or female, I get this sort of low frequency urge to secure them in my life, and my body/brain translates that into sexual desire. It’s like I’m starving, but I get a little TOO turned on by food.
Ana Pirri – But rick, i can’t imagine you ever being away from the type…
Rick Spencer – I’m so starved of the company of other smart creatives that my lizard brain tries to use all it’s tricks to keep them around, or to show my adoration/appreciation. [It's been] at least two years now
Ana Pirri – !
Rick Spencer – Pretty much 90% starved of fellow creators.
Ana Pirri – Well, did it work? oh rick!
Rick Spencer – [One time I did have a sexual relationship with a another creative.]
Ana Pirri – It hurts it hurts!
Rick Spencer – and withdrawing the sex made everything sour.
Ana Pirri – Sure.
Rick Spencer – That’s when you realize that for you, creativity really IS something you need to survive. When your lizard brain turns on the bad behaviors, and emotional conflict, and all those urges and energies to GET it. It’s more powerful than I remember. Anyway, I have to [go], but I thought I would share that with you. Can I ask a favor?
Ana Pirri – Of course
Rick Spencer – I would like to blog this dialogue/monologue. Would you mind if I did, if I anonymized you?
Ana Pirri – Yes – honored.
Rick Spencer – Cool. I’ll give you a rad pseudonym.
Ana Pirri – Excellent
- end
The parts of this exchange that are bracketed are edits with varied degrees of verisimilitude. I have done so to obfuscate experiences that could be embarrassing to others, or simply to enhance readability.
Looking back on this experience I think ‘creatives’ may not have been the right word. Maybe ‘imaginatives’ would have been better. Then again I haven’t been explicitly deprived of imaginitives either. I have known one or two very creative and imaginative people in the last two years, but we certainly met in contexts that were hostile. I know it’s the trendy thing to do but I’m going to quote Teh Mad Menz, “You came here because we do this better than you, and part of that is letting our creatives be unproductive until they are.“
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Rick: I’m not sure why you titled this entry Evil Urges. It seems like a perfectly logical/normal thing to want to be around people who inspire/stimulate/delight you. Making contact with people that are good for your brain/psyche is a healthy thing, I think. Sometimes that has backfired with me, though, because (especially if the person is of the opposite sex) they think I’m coming on to them, when what I really want is to share the intellectual or perceptual part of them. Believe me, I have run off some people that could’ve been good friends, and I regret that, but am not sure how to fix it. So now I am more careful how I approach certain folks whose company I would really like to share . . . less impulsive, I guess. This situation brings up lots of questions for me, like lifestyle, relationships, community, risk-taking, self-perception, etc. I wish you were still close by to talk about these things as they crop up, because this is interesting stuff.
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